published: 2014
pages: 334
read: 12/13 -14/2019
book: 70 in 2019

SYNOPSIS

When Lauren and Ryan’s marriage reaches the breaking point, they come up with an unconventional plan. They decide to take a year off in the hopes of finding a way to fall in love again. One year apart, and only one rule: they cannot contact each other. Aside from that, anything goes.

Lauren embarks on a journey of self-discovery, quickly finding that her friends and family have their own ideas about the meaning of marriage. These influences, as well as her own healing process and the challenges of living apart from Ryan, begin to change Lauren’s ideas about monogamy and marriage. She starts to question: When you can have romance without loyalty and commitment without marriage, when love and lust are no longer tied together, what do you value? What are you willing to fight for?
 


MY THOUGHTS

wow. wow. WOW!
I love TJR! She's proven herself back to back to back (not that she needs to prove shit to anyone!). I don't know why I don't pick up the rest of her back log. why do i cause myself so much pain!!!???

....I really only read this because it was free under kindle unlimited. 

(sorry TJR! i promise to be more faithful to you!) 
I liked the synopsis. 
but even then, I had no idea what to expect at all.

It's been a few days since I've read it and I'm not sure why I've put off writing my thoughts but maybe it's just down to the fact that wow! 70 books! In one year! It's maybe catching up to me. they may not be the perfect reviews or deepest thoughts or whatever but, phew! it catches up to you. and as far as my "reviews" go, I've been playing catch up all year! I've been reading more than writing (!!!) so maybe its just finally caught up with me. ....but oddly enough, im excited for all the new reads to come!


Anyway.


I loved the shit out of this book.

So much so that as I finished it, i bought a physical copy to have for myself.
And I'm considering doing a reread in early 2020.
I ate this one up! so I feel like I might have missed some things because I just wanted to know! I feel like I'll fall even more in love with my favorite parts.
But I think i just want to jump back into Lauren and her year journey.
I want to jump back into her relationships with her family, her friends but most importantly herself.

Without getting into personal details, this story (and these kinds of stories) will always win my heart.

I'm all about stories where love prevails.
Especially when its love between people who find a way to make their way back to each other.

Augh!


There's so much i could say about why I love this book but i don't want to make this long.

I'm doing a horrible job of laying out the words to describe my love for this read but basically, I loves the shit out of this story.

And yes, there are parts where this book broke my heart (baby spoiler: Like Ryan dating home girl whose name I forgot) but then there are parts that lift me up and made my heart burst with love.


I cannot wait to re-read this story and highlight basically the entire book.



Anyway, jump over for basic spoilers.
Thanks for reading!


published: 2019
pages: not sure. read as an ebook (goodreads says 351)
read/heard: 12/8-10/2019
book: 69 in 2019

SYNOPSIS
After an “Oops, we made a mistake” kiss, neither one can stop thinking about the other. With Alexa’s wedding rapidly approaching, Maddie and Theo both share bridal party responsibilities that require more interaction with each other than they’re comfortable with. Underneath the sharp barbs they toss at each other is a simmering attraction that won’t fade. It builds until they find themselves sneaking off together to release some tension when Alexa isn’t looking.

But as with any engagement with a nemesis, there are unspoken rules that must be abided by. First and foremost, don’t fall in love.
 


MY THOUGHTS
(that synopsis is all sorts of fucked up).

A book will call you once its ready to be read.
That's what I always say.

I started this book I think back when it first came out but I instantly DNF'd it because I just didn't have the....everything to deal with it.
It's the same as book 1. It's the same as book 2.
and I just didn't have energy at the moment to re read the same story with different characters.
again.
I know there's a book #4. I wonder how many more there'll be. (btw, book 4 is out and it's about Maddie's mom. And when she was introduced into this story I was like "oh, yep. Here we go. Here she goes inserting her story here so we can get a book out of her later."

A N Y W A Y

for some reason even though I had DNF'd it physically, I had also put it on hold as an ebook in my library. I think maybe even at the same time I ordered the actual copy to see which one would come first.
I got it the other night and i was like yea okay, fuck it. I'll try it and I was actually able to get into it without hesitation.
(apparently i covered all my bases because i also got my audio book order the day after i had finished reading it.)

It actually made me laugh and it made me all giddy in the parts that it needed to and I was all about their romance when they were living it.
But of course all good things must come to an end.

Once Maddie and Theo realize they have feelings for each other, it just, I dreaded it. The last few chapters I found myself thinking "ugh, i want this to be over." & "only 3 more chapters, 1 more. No wait! 2 more. Fuck." i was genuinely upset that there were 2 chapters left instead of 1. when does that ever happen!? 

The only difference, two actually, with this story is:
1) Maddie and Theo have known each other for years, because of Alexa (damn you, amazon!) So it was bound to happen between them. But then when it does, it felt so out of place that it was finally happening. Sorta. like they "hate" each other one scene and in the next Maddie is in front of Theo in nothing but her thong. 

2) wooooow. These two. When they finally clash, they do not hold back.
I don't really remember the first book and the second one very little but the one thing that stood out to me with this one from the others is that when these two FINALLY realize "hey, I fucking love you!" The fought that shit with words.
Like borderline abusive to me.

Maddie tells him hes an uptight, spreadsheet loving, no fun having pathetic excuse of a man and Theo tells her shes basically a no brain, only interested in fashion and money whore who will fuck just about anyone.
I remember characters in the first two books denying it and saying shit along the lines of naaahhh but these two. Wowowowow.
They went for gut punches.
If these two were real humans we'd basically be telling them to stay the fuck away from each other because you know it's not going to end good. 

Aside from the fact that this story is the same as all others this one felt rushed.
Like there were problems one sentence and then the next one, it was fixed. There wasn't really any resolution. Badaboom Badabing, onto the next scene.
it just made no sense. 
its as if the issues never happened. 

That and when she writes their sex scenes.
They were just cringey to me. To me it's like, don't write 2 or 3 sentences getting all pornographic and then in the next line have them at work trying to figure work shit like they weren't just in some low budget porno.
I expect those kinda lines from books that are legit just about them fucking their feels away just to end up together but definitely not this book. Idk that was just weird to me.
i guess what i am trying to say, yea, I've read some of those smut books but at least those books had the balls to be all about that. they owned it and worked it. in this books case, it was a weird, out of place set of sentences that were just, weird. 

Iduno.
Oh! And also, I know this wasn't a book about Alexa but I hated how whiny she made her in this book. Like wtf!
I've never planned a wedding so I'm not sure but she just was so fucking whiny. And her mom! I wish Alexa would've just told her mom respectfully to fuck off.
and Drew. that man was a mute for most of the book. he legit only had like 5-6 lines even though he appears way more than that. it was just so weird. especially in the beginning. i feel like this book devalues all of the work that Alexa and Drew put into their relationship in the first book. 

I'm kinda over my own review. I still gotta type out spoilers and I'm already over it so I'll just stop here.
but I mean, if you want a quick, without too much involvement type of read then, yea, fuck it. Jump in.
You don't need to know the 2 other books to read this one....so there's that.

Hmmm, you know what I'd like? i'd like for all these couples to sit down and just be like "omg lol. THE LITERAL SAME THING HAPPENED TO ALL OF US. Omg! Teehee. and now here we are together. none of our love stories have any type of variety BECAUSE WE ARE ALL THE SAME! YAY!!!!"

Ugh.

Anyway, jump over for spoilers.
Thanks for reading!

published: 2017
pages: 234
read/heard: 12/4-5/2019
book: 68 in 2019


SYNOPSIS
Marin hasn’t spoken to anyone from her old life since the day she left everything behind. No one knows the truth about those final weeks. Not even her best friend, Mabel. But even thousands of miles away from the California coast, at college in New York, Marin still feels the pull of the life and tragedy she’s tried to outrun. Now, months later, alone in an emptied dorm for winter break, Marin waits. Mabel is coming to visit, and Marin will be forced to face everything that’s been left unsaid and finally confront the loneliness that has made a home in her heart.

MY THOUGHTS
Hmmm...I'm not sure what to say about this read.

I wanted to read it since it first came out but then I completely forgot about it and I just came across it a few days ago when I was looking for a quick read.
I got it as an ebook but eventually hunted down the actual copy.

I guess I don't know what to say about this read because I wasn't really sure what to expect of it. and i really was not expecting what it was about AT ALL.
I honestly just wanted to read this simply because I liked the cover. And I would start to read the synopsis but I'd never finish it.

Anyway, this story is about Marin in college sorta dreading Mabel visiting her at college during the holidays.
Marin left for college rather abruptly (from San Francisco to New York) and we don't really know why. Mabel happens to be from that past life that Marin is trying to leave so I can see why she'd be shitting bricks in a sense.

Maybe its noted in the synopsis, I dunno, but it was pretty obvious (and sorry if it's a bit of a spoiler but I promise it's not the whole thing) that the girls were in some sort of relationship. The story eventually gives you that plot and I gotta say, I really did like them together and i really wish that at the end of it all, they would've somehow found a way to end up together. but the theme here i guess is growth and it ended up better in that sense than if they would have ended up in a relationship so i also liked that.

One thing I loved about that part of the story was how accepting Mabel's parents were of their relationship.
Not a single word was wasted on how a) they're too young to be doing that "kind of thing" (being in love) or b) how being gay is wrong or whatever the fuck kind of shit could've been inserted there to make this story any longer than it needed to be.

At the end of it all, it wasn't some stupid hookup. To me it felt like they genuinely cared for and loved each other. And I loved that at the end of it all, that love and care is still there. Not in the same way but maybe even better.

Now. For the other, maybe the main one, plot.

I couldn't wait to see what it was. I couldn't wait to see what made her run away from her past life.
And once you find out, well, my heart broke a little bit. Hints are given to you piece by piece but I wont spoil it on here...but I felt like because she really didn't have anyone to nurture her as a parent, she really didn't know how to understand and/or process what her grandpa was going through.

A theme of mine this year has been something along the lines of "you don't realize your parents (or the adults in your life) are just humans making mistakes as they figure life/shit out day by day. It's not until you're an adult that you see they were just trying to merely survive surviving."

I feel like that is 100% Marin right there.

She took what happened and took it in the worst way possible and its completely understandable. But I feel like she completely ignored the fact that hey!, her gramps was also going through some shit. Obviously. She didn't have anybody. Who does she think he has?

this story is just about this moment in her life. and i liked it but i think part of me would have liked to have seen the after of it all. the graduating and becoming an adult part. 

It ends good.

My one thing is though, if Mabel's parents really wanted that all along, why didn't they speak up sooner? I guess it makes sense because of Marin's Grandpa but I don't know. Why didn't they show it more through out the story? 
Then again, this is told from Marin's POV so who knows maybe they were speaking volumes that wasn't translated to us.

I guess cus I've been reading some pretty light hearted stuff, this one felt a bit more, heavier. but not in any bad type of way.

But I can definitely say star wise, thiiiissss onde is kinda hard for me to "rate" on good reads because too many stars seems like too many but then too little is not enough to convey how good it was. 
i dunno.

Anyway, jump over for spoilers.
Thanks for reading!


published: 2019
pages: 351
read: 11/21-26/2019
book: 67 in 2019

I don't know why people think permanent denial is better than temporary disappointment. -Emma (Tate's mom pg 60)

Sam Brandis was Tate Jones’s first: Her first love. Her first everything. Including her first heartbreak.

During a whirlwind two-week vacation abroad, Sam and Tate fell for each other in only the way that first loves do: sharing all of their hopes, dreams, and deepest secrets along the way. Sam was the first, and only, person that Tate—the long-lost daughter of one of the world’s biggest film stars—ever revealed her identity to. So when it became clear her trust was misplaced, her world shattered for good.

Fourteen years later, Tate, now an up-and-coming actress, only thinks about her first love every once in a blue moon. When she steps onto the set of her first big break, he’s the last person she expects to see. Yet here Sam is, the same charming, confident man she knew, but even more alluring than she remembered. Forced to confront the man who betrayed her, Tate must ask herself if it’s possible to do the wrong thing for the right reason… and whether “once in a lifetime” can come around twice.


MY THOUGHTS 
short version
i started mad at grandma, then i was bugged by how basically clueless Tate is, then i got super into it once Sam was in the picture once again and then i got mad at how clueless Tate still was and as i finished it, i felt all of my feelings deflating. somewhat meh. it had potential but it just, idk, fell flat. 

long version
I guess I just want to know why basically 90% of the goodreads population is solely focused on how "unbelievable" it is that Sam & Tate fell in love over a 2 week period in London when they were 21 and 18. 
Why?
Why is it unbelievable?
Because every one's story in books and real life starts with 2 people who meet at the age of what? 30? And they date for a good amount of time before they decide "yea fuck it. Let's do this for the long haul."?
I 100% liked that they met so "young" and that they knew what they had in each other. 
We shouldn't tell "kids" that they cant be in love or feel love or connect in that way because they're too young to "understand". Kids are smart and resilient and they understand. Just because you're 18, it does not mean that you're feelings are invalid. That is such a stupid way to think. 

You know what I did find unbelievable?
That they finally have sex and he makes her orgasm in the first shot. actually no, they weren't even having sex yet. he just went down on her! 
How. 
In. 
The. 
Fuck.
Like legit she was a virgin and boom. Right off that bat.
Maybe it is possible. Yea, probably. But that's what I'm choosing to believe as unbelievable. 
That and the fact that legit no one is going after how shitty of a father Ian was. 
Like shitty to the max times ten. 
THAT and how unbelievably naive Tate was over her father....and honestly, maybe just how naive she was in general. 
You haven't seen that bag of dicks since you were 8. 10 years have gone by since you last saw him, its been 14 years since you've "reconnected", he still acts like a piece of shit and you still hold a candle to him like hes the best human in the world. (I can definitely understand but it just IRKED me) 
You know who Ian reminds me of? 
Ernesto De La Cruz. 
Lmaooooooooooooo.
It's just how I picture him. Idk why.

....anyway, this story....like I've said before about CLo books, since I'm not a long time fan, these reads are good enough for me. I'm not left wishing for more than what they gave because i have nothing to compare it too. 
Actually, false. I do want a bit more. I wanted more to that ending. I would've like to have seen the way they "resolved" it. I would have loved to have seen Ian finally get that shit smirk wiped off his face. i would have definitely liked to have seen Tate's mom for once FINALLY just tell her "hey kid, your dad is a dick."  Tate is 32  by now, she needs a dose of reality. or 500.
I would've liked to have seen the movie release, the ratings, the reviews, Sam & Tate walking that red carpet with nothing but love and pride in each others eyes for one another. i would have looooved to see the way they finally stood up for themselves. 
Tate, i feel like was written very poorly. girl never had any control of her life in a sense. i would have liked to see her finally grow a pair of balls and just yell at the top of her lungs "FUCK Y'ALL THIS IS MY LIFE!!!!" 
Literally anything but the fucking ending we get. 

At first this book pissed me off with how...... 😡🤬 the grandma was. That whole shpeal about the room and views and just the way she was depicted at the beginning. Gah. It bugged me. 

Then the book started in the now real time and Tate talks about how she was hurt by Sam and blah blah blah but it irked me because he technically gave her what she wanted, albeit in a shitty way. he basically paved the way for her and she's still to this day pissed. Idk. Its weird to explain. 
It was a shitty thing he did but she acts like she didn't already want what his actions caused. I'm in no way defending Sam but I'm just saying, shes playing the victim card a little too much. he gave you what you legit did not have the balls to go for. girl, you trippin.

once the story starts, i feel like i saw a bit more how Tate wasn't really in charge of her life...or how naive she is. 
1. she is excited to film with her dad finally (i mean she's also nervous but shes asking for a lot here) and of course everyone knows its going to be a shit show (her mother, grandma and even best friend....in the sense that she is not going to get the reunion she wants) but no one tells her because....i don't fucking know. her grandma was a stickler in the beginning but basically by the end of this all, she's the only one that kept it real with her. Honestly, this was probably the best thing that CLo did for this story (is it CLo? i don't even know but that's what I'm calling them. lol) Grandma was the only one that was true to this story. she hated the motherfucker and she stayed true to her feels. she let it be known!

2. i know Marco is her PR and it has to be about sales but that scene with the magazine covers and what he tells her i was like F U H !!!! 
"you okay with me sending this one? i know it makes you uneasy but its so fucking beautiful. I'm genuinely speechless." 
this picture he is talking about reminds her of when her life changed and what i took from it is that it hurt her to see that photo because of all the pain it caused. she didn't want that one but of course she doesn't say anything. if you really think about it, how would i, a regular citizen, know that i am missing out on that special cover if its never released. i feel that celebrity-dom will eat anything up if they really "care" so it doesn't even matter. her feelings were just pushed aside. no matter the cover, that shit would have sold. she should have stood the fuck up for herself. and honestly, for as great as Marco was and how well he knows her, i feel that he should have known better. 

3. i feel like home girl is oblivious to just life in general. i know in her life its been 14 years as opposed to the 100 pages or whatever that i read from when she was told the story to when she starts filming the movie, but how did she not know about the movie she was playing the lead in? and once she sees Sam...how did she not make the connection? 
i mean, i saw it coming. and I'm horrible with figuring shit out. 
how did she miss it? (i don't want to spoil it here). 

i really did like this book and i liked the love story and even though Sam was a dick for what he did (actually, i really don't think he was tbh) i still love him  and how it all plays out. 
basically i feel this book is flawed in a lot of ways. not in the same ways other see it but that's the beauty in reading. we all see things differently, we interpret them differently. 
i could go on and on and on and ooooonnnnnnnn about why this book fell a bit flat in a sense but then we'd be here forever so I'll just cut it here. 

i definitely say pick this one up but don't expect things to be perfect. read this knowing you might leave pissed off lol. its a good read....to me personally, its just heavily flawed in the sense that Tate was so.....flat.... but I'm still genuinely glad i read it. I'm not even mad that i owe my library $.30 because i returned it a day late just so i could finish it. 

anyway, 
jump over for spoilers! 


published: 2019
pages: 326
read: 8/9 to ? heard: 11/19-20/2019
book: 66 in 2019

I KNOW EVERYTHING FEELS HOPELESS TO YOU IN THIS MOMENT, BUT THIS IS JUST A MOMENT, AND MOMENTS PASS. 
-BARRY (PG 5) 

SYNOPSIS
Memory makes reality.

That’s what New York City cop Barry Sutton is learning as he investigates the devastating phenomenon the media has dubbed False Memory Syndrome—a mysterious affliction that drives its victims mad with memories of a life they never lived.

That's what neuroscientist Helena Smith believes. It’s why she’s dedicated her life to creating a technology that will let us preserve our most precious memories. If she succeeds, anyone will be able to re-experience a first kiss, the birth of a child, the final moment with a dying parent. 

As Barry searches for the truth, he comes face-to-face with an opponent more terrifying than any disease—a force that attacks not just our minds but the very fabric of the past. And as its effects begin to unmake the world as we know it, only he and Helena, working together, will stand a chance at defeating it.

But how can they make a stand when reality itself is shifting and crumbling all around them?


MY THOUGHTS
SHORT VERSION
yea but like nah. this one wasn't for me. 

LONG VERSION
I wanted to love this.
I really did.

Unfortunately,  I'm not so crazy about it.

It's not a bad written book, I think it's pretty great in that aspect. The things that Blake writes about and the way he explains and twists and turns them and the details that go into his story telling is crazy amazing. Just, who I am as a reader doesn't click with this genre maybe. (i also wasnt too crazy about Dark Matter. TOO many Jason's.)

I got this from the library when it first came out about 12 weeks ago. I started it, took it with me to Arizona, ordered a copy off Amazon because I knew I wasn't going to be done before it was due and I knew I couldn't renew it. I got my copy picked it back up, put it back down and read 14 other books!

I don't know.
I just couldn't get into it.

...so I ordered the audio book through my library hoping i could get into and guess what!?
I could.....until I couldn't.

I started from the beginning and I found myself very invested in the parts I had already read. I even found myself understanding it more than I did the first time.
Then it got to the part I hadn't read and I found myself lost-ish once again.

And then, I feel like it just got a bit repetitive....and. it. wouldn't. fucking. end.  

I'm all for women creating shit for the better of human kind, real or fictional. 
But you gotta admit, wasn't it selfish of Helena to want to build a machine to save her mom's memories?
All that time wasted building the chair was time I feel she wasted not spending it with her mother making memories that she could've kept herself (but then the upside is that she was able to go back and spend way more time with her mother and see things in a new light...). 


....and also, I know it's a story  B U T the logic she has later on when she realizes the terror the chair causes, WHY DIDN'T SHE HAVE THAT LOGIC AS SHE WAS TRYING TO BUILD IT!????
She needed a shit load of money to build it.
What kind of intentions does she think the people that can finance this sorta thing have?
Later on, she's all "I don't want the government getting their hands on my shit" pero like,  really?


I get it. She was so dead set on this thing happening.
She wanted this for her mother and others and she genuinely wanted to do good. And I get that when you want something so bad you can be blinded by the reality of it all that you, I dunno, i guess ignore the cold hard truth.
 
Humanity, H U M A N S, cannot handle this kind of technology or science or whatever. Not in a fake story. definitely not in real life.
(also i should note that i can't (and i'm not) really hold her "accountable" for the actions of others when her intention was to do good BUT i also feel like we all know our boundaries. and while we should never do things solely based on how others will react.....i feel like in this magnitude...maybe you shouldn't fuck with shit of this nature.)

And so whatever,  all this shit happens and really?
That's how it's going to end?
Home girl built this shit to save memories, caused the end of the world basically  6 different times and that's how it ends? 


pay attention to the dates. 
that's all i will say. 
i did at first but so many dates are thrown around that i was just like  *head scratch* huh? 

and i do see how me trying to insert reality into a story might be altering my views or whatever a little bit but that's the way i'm processing this book. take all of my "humans shouldn't be doing this kinda shit" talk out of this or whatever and it was still too long and repetitive and at times just gets you lost. i couldn't understand it most of the time and then the rest i just didn't even want to try to devote all my energy into it. 

anyway, it is a good read and i think if i ever dive into it again, ill probably like it more. 
but i don't really see myself doing that right now and I'm contemplating leaving my copy in a little free library so yea, for now, its just not for me.  

ill do the most basic spoilers ever because i couldn't even if i tried. 


thanks for reading!


*edit: apparently 2 neuroscientists implanted a fake memory in a mouse in 2002. so, there's that. 😔

published: 2018
pages: 262
heard: 11/14-15/2019
book: 65 in 2019

Amber wakes up in a hospital. She can’t move. She can’t speak. She can’t open her eyes. She can hear everyone around her, but they have no idea. Amber doesn’t remember what happened, but she has a suspicion her husband had something to do with it. Alternating between her paralyzed present, the week before her accident, and a series of childhood diaries from twenty years ago, this brilliant psychological thriller asks: Is something really a lie if you believe it's the truth?


MY THOUGHTS
riiiight as I was about to start this book, I saw that it's becoming a show or a series or whatever so that's promising. I can't wait to see what they do with it.
The book did what its sposed to do. I'm hoping the show can cut to the chase and do it faster.

I am now scared of my sister, I'm questioning the legitimacy of my siblings actual blood connection to me, I never want to date, and i definitely don't want to get married. (Lol!) ....I may even be rethinking my relationship with my own mother....and our relationship is great!...so far.

BUT I do feel like it took a while to make me feel all that.
The book is only 262 pages long.
I think for me it started to pick up around pg 180. That was like 70 some shit % of the book that had already passed by before it got good for me.
That's a long ass time.
....I should note that I got through this as an audio book and read along at some points.
maybe I would've liked it more had I just read it?
I dunno. I found myself zoning out in some parts.

I think I wasn't a huge ass fan of it because it remind me of 1) My Husbands Wife with the whole kid aspect and the chapters in the kids voice & of 2) Bring Me Back because of the whole......identity sibling kinda thing.
I hated MHW because it was too long and gave you very little in the end for all the work it required and the whole kid plot/chapters were just 😫😒😩😶 and I didn't care as much for BMB because it told the story better and complete in 1 chapter explaining the entire plot and reasoning for home girls actions than it did (read: tried to) in the whole entirety of the book. Legit, it should've just been a novella or whatever. It had a lot more promise and could've been way better had it been executed properly. (Sorry for going off the rails but, I feel very strongly about all of this and the comparisons between the books)
...ya know what also? This is what Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine would have become had home girl gone to the dark side instead of finding IT guy and her happiness or whatever.

ANYWAY!,

I also think wasn't a huge fan because the build up was way too long. And to be honest, I hated the fucking "before" chapters but I can see why they were needed.

Side note: the story is told in 3 time lines:
1. Then
2. Now
3. Before

I won't say anything else about the time lines because it could be a bit spoilery

B U T

*sing songy* buuuuuuuuut 
once the twists start unraveling, *tun, tun, tuuuuuuun boy does it get goooood!

Like always, I cheated and found out 2 out of the many spoilers but woah! Even knowing I was still like woah.

Now, I'm saying I liked them (the twists) and they did pull some emotions out of me but even then, even after the high of finally getting there, this was still just an okay read for me.
The end result was great! But it doesn't warrant the leg work it took to get there.

At least, NOT FOR ME.

And that ending!, it's not open ended-ish buuuuuut well, WTF ya know? 
I'm choosing to believe homeboy is fucking with her and honestly, I fucking hope he is.
ahhhhhh!!!!!!

I'm still excited for the tv show (that tbh I probably wont even remember to watch) and I'm hoping they condense a small page count book with a long journey that took some work to get into, into something that delivers sooner with a bigger punch.

also I'm wondering, is SMG going to play Claire?

anyway jump over for quick spoilers cause for a small book, there is a lot!

(these might be my fave spoilers ever because LOL!)
thanks for reading!