her every fear // peter swanson

published: 2017
pages: 297 (ebook) 
ISBN: 9780062427045
read: 8/20-24/2017 (although it was more like a day cause once i sat down, i couldnt put it down!) 
book: 27 of 29 for 2017

The danger isn’t all in your head . . .
Growing up, Kate Priddy was always a bit neurotic, experiencing momentary bouts of anxiety that exploded into full blown panic attacks after an ex-boyfriend kidnapped her and nearly ended her life. When Corbin Dell, a distant cousin in Boston, suggests the two temporarily swap apartments, Kate, an art student in London, agrees, hoping that time away in a new place will help her overcome the recent wreckage of her life.
But soon after her arrival at Corbin’s grand apartment on Beacon Hill, Kate makes a shocking discovery: his next-door neighbor, a young woman named Audrey Marshall, has been murdered. When the police question her about Corbin, a shaken Kate has few answers, and many questions of her own—curiosity that intensifies when she meets Alan Cherney, a handsome, quiet tenant who lives across the courtyard, in the apartment facing Audrey’s. Alan saw Corbin surreptitiously come and go from Audrey’s place, yet he’s denied knowing her. Then, Kate runs into a tearful man claiming to be the dead woman’s old boyfriend, who insists Corbin did the deed the night that he left for London.
When she reaches out to her cousin, he proclaims his innocence and calms her nerves . . . until she comes across disturbing objects hidden in the apartment—and accidentally learns that Corbin is not where he says he is. Could Corbin be a killer? And what about Alan? Kate finds herself drawn to this appealing man who seems so sincere, yet she isn’t sure. Jet lagged and emotionally unstable, her imagination full of dark images caused by the terror of her past, Kate can barely trust herself . . . So how could she take the chance on a stranger she’s just met?
Yet the danger Kate imagines isn’t nearly as twisted and deadly as what’s about to happen. When her every fear becomes very real.
And much, much closer than she thinks.

omgod this freaking boooookkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love the living crap out of this book!!!!

this is how i know I've been reading YA a little too long. because this book left me scared to sleep once i got into it and jumping all over the kitchen every time my dogs barked. 
the other day i was eating in the kitchen and i was in a particularly intriguing part when my dogs started barking. 
i jumped up SO high, i left my sandals and everything and ran to the living room ready to attack! (i think i was also scared because my back was to an open door lol!) 
seriously, once it got to the the "thriller" part of if, i had to stop reading it because i was scared all alone in my room.
but please note, I'm a huge chicken shit so don't take my commitment to its scariness too serious. 

T H I S   B O O K ! ! !

even if the ending was a little, meh, i still loved it because this freaking story had me glued! i couldn't wait to get deeper and deeper into the story. 
i really liked the multiple points of view that this is told in and honestly, it only kept getting better and better for me. 

and then the Henry chapter started (towards the end) and i was kinda over it because it was kind of like re-reading what i had already read BUT it gave me more insights into the other point of views. 
like, i saw how things happened from Corbin's & Kate's side but then to have his side just put it all together even more!

and JESUS!!!!!
poor Corbin. i mean, obviously he was a big fuck up too but damn. talk about not being able to live your life. and now, while he was caught for some of his things, he'll never be cleared of Rachael....(will spoil below). 

the whole entire time i had NO IDEA who had done it!
my mind kept going everywhere. 
at one point i thought it was the lady who owns the cat, Sanders! i thought maybe, because no one ever really saw her out, that she didn't really exist and the killer lived there pretending to be the old lady. 

I'm telling you! it was everywhere. 

you do find out who the killer is waaaaaaaay before the story is over and that might turn some people off but i was so hooked on the story that i didn't even care and it actually helped me focus more on the story vs trying to figure it out all along. 

i will say that Kate has some fucked up luck though. 
like how much shit can she really be going through. 
and her parents!!!!
after what she went through, how can her mother just be like..."yea it doesn't matter anyway cause you won't do it....(BITCH!)" like, giiiirl! that's yo' child. how are you just going to send her across the pond knowing that the sight of a leaf scares her half to death!? 

but also, seeing how afraid Kate was of basically everything, she wasn't really written that way. she knew there was a killer basically on the loose and in her immediate area but yet, she still remained. given her past, i would have fled the fuck out of there faster than my brain could have processed the thought!

anyway, i know this story might be a little far fetched but i loved it. 
absolutely looooooooved it! 
I'm definitely glad that i read it and i might even look into some more of his work!!!!

ill leave ya here. but jump on over if you want to read the spoilers!

thanks for reading. 

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tell the wolves i'm home // carol rifka brunt

published: 2012
pages: 368 (353 total reading because the rest is extra stuff) 
eISBN: 978-0-8129-9292-2
read: 8/12-17/2017
rating: SO GOOD! the feels!!!
book: 26 of 29 for 2017

...and i thought how many small good things in the world might be resting on the shoulders of something terrible. 
pg 233

1987. There’s only one person who has ever truly understood fourteen-year-old June Elbus, and that’s her uncle, the renowned painter Finn Weiss. Shy at school and distant from her older sister, June can only be herself in Finn’s company; he is her godfather, confidant, and best friend. So when he dies, far too young, of a mysterious illness her mother can barely speak about, June’s world is turned upside down. But Finn’s death brings a surprise acquaintance into June’s life—someone who will help her to heal, and to question what she thinks she knows about Finn, her family, and even her own heart.
At Finn’s funeral, June notices a strange man lingering just beyond the crowd. A few days later, she receives a package in the mail. Inside is a beautiful teapot she recognizes from Finn’s apartment, and a note from Toby, the stranger, asking for an opportunity to meet. As the two begin to spend time together, June realizes she’s not the only one who misses Finn, and if she can bring herself to trust this unexpected friend, he just might be the one she needs the most.

this book!!!

the beauty in everyone collectively reading the same book is the interpretation that everyone sees in it. 
and i can see why people liked this book and why they didn't. 
why they thought Greta was suuuuuch a bitch but others excused her. 
why they were mad at their mom and others forgave her (I'm in the middle on this one but actually, screw her). 

I'm trying to find the right words to convey how this book made me feel. 
I'm so glad that i picked it up. i feel like it did its job of getting me out of a funk (still not 100% recovered). i honestly believe i would have finished it like the very next day, except that for once, i had a busy Sunday. 

I'm glad that i read this because while it is from a "child's" point of view, its very mature. 
its not a love story, girl in school trying to find love kinda read. its a grown up read. 
(it reminded me very much of this book!) 
it deals with the subject of aids in the time of their appearance but it doesn't solely focus on that. for me it was more about June trying to find her place and what she means to people but also about 2 sisters that are trying to find their way back to each other. 
and their mom...oi vey. 
it's a perfect example on how children understand more than we give them credit for. 

I'm just so fucking glad that this wasn't a YA novel with dumb high school love and just dumb shit. (don't get me wrong, i love that stuff but maybe i need a break from that).

...but there were certain parts that i was kinda iffy about. 
well, just the one. and that's about June and Finn....and that's all I'll say because i don't want to spoil it out here. 
and her mom! UGH!!!!
what a B!......

ill leave you with some faves and then jump to the spoilers.

your brain and your heart decide what you were going to believe and that was that. whether you liked it or not." 
pg 9

Being a romantic  means you always see whats beautiful. whats good. you don't want to see the gritty truth of things. you believe everything will turn out right." 
pg 128

everyone needs to think they have secrets. 
pg 353
thanks for reading. 

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F My Life


published: 2009
pages: 93 (as an ebook. but realistically it was 83)
isbn 978-0345518767
read: 8/2-10/2017
book 25 of 29 for 2017

Today, my boss fired me via text message. I don’t have a text messaging plan. I paid 25 cents to get fired.

Your girlfriend dumped you, your car broke down, your boss passed you up for the big promotion. Life’s not fair, but there is one sure-fire way to ease your pain–laughing at someone else who had an even worse day than you did. 

Enter the devastatingly funny world of F My Life, where calamity is comedy. Covering every disastrous pratfall in love, work, family-life, and more, F My Life proffers other people’s ruinous, real-life happenings to brighten your gloomiest day: someone getting dumped through a greeting card, ignored at their birthday party, or insulted by their own grandmother. Spanning everything from ironic twists of fate to down-right shameful moments, F My Life’s squirm-inducing stories are schadenfreude at its finest. So today, take solace in knowing that at least you’re not that guy. There now, don’t you feel better?

ahm, im in a funk
i don't want to read anything and what i start i hate, so i haven't bothered. 
and then i got an email and this book was for sale so i bit the bullet. 
...and i waited weeks. 

so i finally started it and it was actually pretty funny at some points. 

its split into several sections and they mostly had some gems in them. 
then they had some stupid ass ones that i was like, "REALLY!?" 
for example: Today, my boyfriend told me i smell like vegetables. FML. 
uhm no, that one was pretty stupid. 
i think the stupidest one. 

but overall, funny read. 
except, you can go on the website and read all the FML's for free. 
and it looks like they updated it so haaay! (and i'd link it but my job has blocked it lol! fmylife.com)

anyway, ill leave you with some i thought were highlarious. 

today i went home for my grandma's 95th birthday. when i got there, she noticed my new tongue piercing and asked why i would get that done. before i could reply, my cousin said, "so she can make the boys happier when she's sucking on them." she's 9 years old. FML.

today in a very crowded public restroom at a sporting arena, after looking at the man using the urinal to his right, my six-year-old son turned to me and exclaimed, "Daddy that man's wiener is a lot bigger than yours!" the whole bathroom heard. FML

today my grandmother, who has Alzheimer's disease and can't usually remember my name, had a sudden moment of clarity and asked my why i'm not married yet. FML

today i was reading the end of my book. i turned the page and saw, written at the top: "lauren kills paul in the end. you shouldn't have pissed me off." it was from my sister. 
we had a fight yesterday. FML

Today my best friend invited me to dinner at his house. when i went to the bathroom, i found my wife's wedding ring in a cup. she lost it a week ago. FML

thanks for reading. 
promise to start reading something more intriguing! 
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