"Now I know how much worse things can be."
published: 2020
pages: 340
read: 4/25-26/2020
book: 34 in 2020
SYNOPSIS
You probably know someone like Shay Miller.
She wants to find love, but it eludes her.
She wants to be fulfilled, but her job is a dead end.
She wants to belong, but her life is so isolated.
You probably don’t know anyone like the Moore sisters.
They have an unbreakable circle of friends.
They live the most glamorous life.
They always get what they desire.
Shay thinks she wants their life.
But what they really want is hers.
THOUGHTS
eh.
this was an okay read.
the one good thing i can say is that I'm not mad i read it, which I've said before...."I wouldve been okay never having read this."
that's not the case here.
I can see why a lot of people like it.
I can also see why some people, myself included are in the "eh" boat about it.
Y'all know I love a good spoiler and in this books case, I found 3 before I was done. I'm 100% sure that had I not read them, I would have maaaaaaybe liked the book better but I'm going to argue that that's not the case here.
See, the one major spoiler, aside from the obvious one, was pretty freaking good. But I think my beef with this book lies in the simple fact that it is 340 pages long and you get the main spoiler on I think something like page 330.
Bro, you're left with 10 pages after that.
And like 2 or 3 of them are epilogue.....so there's not a lot left once you know which means the ending was just basic af.
And actually, yes, it was.
I love an open ended ending...when it's done good.
and so you can see where I'm going with this.
this book is told in 3 parts. The first 2 & a half read like the entire show that is Arrested Development. Shay is at a place at the wrong time. I cant really say wrong place because she "was sposed" to be there but basically from that point on, the same story line is going on and everyone is doing the same exact thing or trying to get to the same thing but since no one is communicating honestly about their actions, they're all getting to the end point in very different/deceiving ways.
....and then the rest.....well its sloppy...its about...well I dont want to spoil it here but you can see it start to fall apart. and actually, it was never really that clean anyway.
These were some amateur women doing some very sloppy work.
I guess in the end I wasnt a huge fan because it just....ends. it takes A LOT of work (330 pages) to get the result. And it was great but it wasnt 340 pages great.
it only took me two days to read if only because I did not want to wake up to continue reading it a third.
I'm just glad i finally got it off my bookshelf.
..oooh! And I found a typo, so that was fun.
jump over for spoilers!
thanks for reading!
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pages: 340
read: 4/25-26/2020
book: 34 in 2020
SYNOPSIS
You probably know someone like Shay Miller.
She wants to find love, but it eludes her.
She wants to be fulfilled, but her job is a dead end.
She wants to belong, but her life is so isolated.
You probably don’t know anyone like the Moore sisters.
They have an unbreakable circle of friends.
They live the most glamorous life.
They always get what they desire.
Shay thinks she wants their life.
But what they really want is hers.
THOUGHTS
eh.
this was an okay read.
the one good thing i can say is that I'm not mad i read it, which I've said before...."I wouldve been okay never having read this."
that's not the case here.
I can see why a lot of people like it.
I can also see why some people, myself included are in the "eh" boat about it.
Y'all know I love a good spoiler and in this books case, I found 3 before I was done. I'm 100% sure that had I not read them, I would have maaaaaaybe liked the book better but I'm going to argue that that's not the case here.
See, the one major spoiler, aside from the obvious one, was pretty freaking good. But I think my beef with this book lies in the simple fact that it is 340 pages long and you get the main spoiler on I think something like page 330.
Bro, you're left with 10 pages after that.
And like 2 or 3 of them are epilogue.....so there's not a lot left once you know which means the ending was just basic af.
And actually, yes, it was.
I love an open ended ending...when it's done good.
and so you can see where I'm going with this.
this book is told in 3 parts. The first 2 & a half read like the entire show that is Arrested Development. Shay is at a place at the wrong time. I cant really say wrong place because she "was sposed" to be there but basically from that point on, the same story line is going on and everyone is doing the same exact thing or trying to get to the same thing but since no one is communicating honestly about their actions, they're all getting to the end point in very different/deceiving ways.
....and then the rest.....well its sloppy...its about...well I dont want to spoil it here but you can see it start to fall apart. and actually, it was never really that clean anyway.
These were some amateur women doing some very sloppy work.
I guess in the end I wasnt a huge fan because it just....ends. it takes A LOT of work (330 pages) to get the result. And it was great but it wasnt 340 pages great.
it only took me two days to read if only because I did not want to wake up to continue reading it a third.
I'm just glad i finally got it off my bookshelf.
..oooh! And I found a typo, so that was fun.
jump over for spoilers!
thanks for reading!
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SPOILERS.
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daphne (the boutique owner) went on a date with James.
He ends up raping her.
She texts him that she hopes he rots in hell.
...he ends up dead and now she's a main suspect in his death.
which she is a part of his death but she's a suspect based only on that text and NOT any actual evidence.
Amanda commits suicide because......she assisted in killing James.
She stole some shit from her job (she's a nurse) and she spikes his drink with it. After he chugged it and becomes woozy, she drags him out and takes him to central park. Once he's theres, Valerie (works for Cassandra & Jane) starts carving above his eye "RAPE" but he dies before she can finish the A.
Amanda is freaking out and tries to save him but val and stacey (the computer hacker) don't let her. She watches him die, Cassandra & Jane and Beth (the defense attorney) come running and break everyone up since they hear people coming.
They all agree to go meet up at C&Js house.
Amanda was sposed to go have dinner solo and secure an alibi and leave a trail away from the incident but after the death panicked and leaves to her apt.
In the end, she couldn't handle it.
She stops going out, eating or sleeping, gets fired and continously gets harrassed by the women.
She tells them eventually that shes going to take the blame for it all bc she cant deal with it any longer but the women tell her that shes being an idiot.
Finally on the day of, shes going to the police.
If I remember correctly, she called to let them (the police) know she was on her way to report a homicide and that she has evidence (she hid it in her mailbox).
As shes leaving her building, she keeps getting calls from the women when finally she answers, I think its Val who tells her to stop right at the corner shes at.
The jig is up. She now knows shes been being followed/watched.
So she panics and runs down to the subway.
She missed the train by 22 seconds.
Shay misses it because she stopped to tie up her hair. While they're waiting for the next train, Shay feels uncomfortable when a guy starts walking toward her so she walks towards Amanda. She sees her and thinks that she looks like someone she could be friends with.
As the train is coming, Amanda jumps in front of the train. ( you later learn that the reason she jumped is because behind Shay, she saw Valerie walking towards her. There was no way to avoid her now. And just a few seconds before, she realized that the necklace she wore all the time was actually a tracker that was given to her by the sisters.)
Obvs shay sees the suicide and notices the necklace on the floor. She picks it up and pockets it, forgets about it and finds it weeks later.
The whole point of the story is that Shay feels like shes bonding with the sisters and since she told a little white lie as to how she knew of Amanda instead of saying that she witnessed it all, she continues to lie. So shay is lying out of omission.
BUTTTT the sisters think that Amanda told Shay something if not everything so they run circles around each other trying to gather Intel in a rather arrested development type of way.
In the end it turns out that Valerie is actually Cassandra and Jane's older sister who ran away when she was 17ish because her steph brother tried to rape her and when she told her mother, her mom basically told her to shut the fuck up.
AND it turns out that James was actually Trey, the girls stepbrother.
He ends up raping her.
She texts him that she hopes he rots in hell.
...he ends up dead and now she's a main suspect in his death.
which she is a part of his death but she's a suspect based only on that text and NOT any actual evidence.
Amanda commits suicide because......she assisted in killing James.
She stole some shit from her job (she's a nurse) and she spikes his drink with it. After he chugged it and becomes woozy, she drags him out and takes him to central park. Once he's theres, Valerie (works for Cassandra & Jane) starts carving above his eye "RAPE" but he dies before she can finish the A.
Amanda is freaking out and tries to save him but val and stacey (the computer hacker) don't let her. She watches him die, Cassandra & Jane and Beth (the defense attorney) come running and break everyone up since they hear people coming.
They all agree to go meet up at C&Js house.
Amanda was sposed to go have dinner solo and secure an alibi and leave a trail away from the incident but after the death panicked and leaves to her apt.
In the end, she couldn't handle it.
She stops going out, eating or sleeping, gets fired and continously gets harrassed by the women.
She tells them eventually that shes going to take the blame for it all bc she cant deal with it any longer but the women tell her that shes being an idiot.
Finally on the day of, shes going to the police.
If I remember correctly, she called to let them (the police) know she was on her way to report a homicide and that she has evidence (she hid it in her mailbox).
As shes leaving her building, she keeps getting calls from the women when finally she answers, I think its Val who tells her to stop right at the corner shes at.
The jig is up. She now knows shes been being followed/watched.
So she panics and runs down to the subway.
She missed the train by 22 seconds.
Shay misses it because she stopped to tie up her hair. While they're waiting for the next train, Shay feels uncomfortable when a guy starts walking toward her so she walks towards Amanda. She sees her and thinks that she looks like someone she could be friends with.
As the train is coming, Amanda jumps in front of the train. ( you later learn that the reason she jumped is because behind Shay, she saw Valerie walking towards her. There was no way to avoid her now. And just a few seconds before, she realized that the necklace she wore all the time was actually a tracker that was given to her by the sisters.)
Obvs shay sees the suicide and notices the necklace on the floor. She picks it up and pockets it, forgets about it and finds it weeks later.
The whole point of the story is that Shay feels like shes bonding with the sisters and since she told a little white lie as to how she knew of Amanda instead of saying that she witnessed it all, she continues to lie. So shay is lying out of omission.
BUTTTT the sisters think that Amanda told Shay something if not everything so they run circles around each other trying to gather Intel in a rather arrested development type of way.
In the end it turns out that Valerie is actually Cassandra and Jane's older sister who ran away when she was 17ish because her steph brother tried to rape her and when she told her mother, her mom basically told her to shut the fuck up.
AND it turns out that James was actually Trey, the girls stepbrother.
James is the one that raped Daphne and tried raping Valerie all those years ago.
So they had it out for him for a while.
But the best spoiler is......that Valerie knew all along that she'd be able to control her sisters.
Once she told them the reason that she left and that she was the one that told their step dad that her mom was cheating so that hed kick them out therefore getting James aka Trey away from them before he could hurt them, she knew shed be able to create this group of revengeful women where her sisters "would run it" but she'd hold all of the power. (Idk she explains it better)
So they had it out for him for a while.
But the best spoiler is......that Valerie knew all along that she'd be able to control her sisters.
Once she told them the reason that she left and that she was the one that told their step dad that her mom was cheating so that hed kick them out therefore getting James aka Trey away from them before he could hurt them, she knew shed be able to create this group of revengeful women where her sisters "would run it" but she'd hold all of the power. (Idk she explains it better)
Question - I can't remember how Amanda got caught up with the sisters. What is her connection?
ReplyDeletei dont really remember since its been a while but since she was a nurse, im sure the women friended her because she was a nurse and they needed things to kill homeboy.
Deleteim pretty sure it was all orchestrated by Valerie though since its all connected.