go ask alice anonymous // beatrice sparks

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its a movie!? 

i didnt want to post a picture of the book because i spook easily and its kinda creepy to me.  

published: 1971
pages: 214
isbn: 978-1-4169-1463-1
read from: 5/22-23/2016
rating: 1) hate it 2) liked it 3) LOVED IT
(but im would have been 1000% okay with not reading it. goldfish brain dont fail me now) 

SYNOPSIS ((amazon))

January 24th
After you've had it, there isn't even life without drugs....
It started when she was served a soft drink laced with LSD in a dangerous party game. Within months, she was hooked, trapped in a downward spiral that took her from her comfortable home and loving family to the mean streets of an unforgiving city. It was a journey that would rob her of her innocence, her youth -- and ultimately her life.
Read her diary.
Enter her world.
You will never forget her.

SPOILERS
i mean. she does drugs, gets addicted and dies. its all in the synopsis so i can't really spoil anything. 

uhm but i guess i can add that she runs away and comes back to do it all again and then ultimately dies. we don't know how really. it was an overdose but we don't really know how or why it happened. where were her brother and sister at? 

anyways... 

MY RAMBLINGS 
(just thoughts on the book itself)

for some reason this book started presenting itself to me in a lot of different places. then i went to the library and while randomly walking around, it jumped at me so i started reading it on the floor. then i walked the long way home and i read a huge bulk of it then. 

at first, well it wasn't until i was almost half way done when she talks to a chick named Alice that i realized i didn't know homegirls name. that would explain the anonymous after go ask Alice. don't laugh, but i thought anonymous was what the author was choosing to be named until i googled it. 

tell me if you know, but I'm not sure if this is based on a real story or not. in the copyright page it says that its fiction but then you turn the page and it says that its based on a real 15 year olds diary. whether you believe it to be true or not, i will tell you this, this book scared the shit out of me. 

while i have already sworn to NEVER do any type of drug, real or not, this book scared the shit out of me. 

are you kidding me!? 

I've ALWAYS been anti drugs. even weed (for just myself. you do what you want, i support your decisions. cause they are yours!) i get so paranoid its stupid, so i cant even imagine doing the actual hard stuff. but then i read this and I'm thinking "okay maybe it could be far off but still, you never know." and then her last trip on acid when she didn't even know she had done it, HOLY SHIT! 

i liked the book and it was a fairly good/fast read. even if this was just written to scare the crap out of little kids into not doing drugs, it scared this 28 year old even more. 

and no, i don't know what side effects each drug has or even mostly how you use them. so when i read comments about people saying that maybe when they were kids they fell for it but now as adults they see the flaws, no i didn't even register the wrong details in each individual use. maybe its that i never read it as a teen. but no matter what, i know it just scared me into for sure NEVER doing any type of drug. 

gah!!!

i think the one other thing that i did take away from this book is that you should always speak up. in most of the book her main struggle was that she could never speak to anyone about it. and it makes you think about just how different things might have gone. 

but also, a) did her parents ever find her diaries and read them? (apparently yes cause they were the ones that published them) b) why did she go off her shit 3 weeks after? what caused her to kill herself on purpose if it was on purpose and if it was on accident, why was she messing around with stuff. or did somebody trip her. (like her first and last time.)

apparently there's a companion diary, Jay's Journal, and i saw a lot more on amazon, but i wont be reading those. jays is about drugs and shit and satanism and thats something i DEFINITELY do not need/want to read 

have you read go ask alice? 

what did ya think? 

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