"you grow up thinking that somebody who loves you should automatically know how to care for you, and vice versa. that to love is to understand, and to understand is to know exactly how to act. but so much gets lost between people. we don't even know how to best care for ourselves a lot of the time, so how could we expect to do it so effortlessly for others? "
pub: 2018
pages: 242
read: jan 11 to feb13, 2022
book: 6 in 2022
THOUGHTS
I loved this book. ❤️
I loved this book. ❤️
i love this book because it taught me that maybe i could have loved essay books all along, that just maybe i was reading them wrong (for me) all along. i kept trying to speed race through them instead of letting each essay do what it needed to do in order for me to understand it as best as possible.
i appreciated a lot of what she was trying to say through her essays and while in the beginning i was kind over the whole boyfriends crap (this is where i learned to put the book down, cool down and come back to it whenever i was ready again) for me this one ends pretty strong.
i love the way she brings her sister into this story. the way she talks about her mother and the way she makes them all feel at home no matter the length of stay. and the chapter about her dad! ahh! i was crying by the end of it. I couldn't stand it! i was so happy that she gets to have parents that show up for her the way that hers have. her writing about her father made me sooooo happy for her that she's had that support all along. How tight is that?
"did you know that your parents are also people? i did not."
phew. i think if a book can make you feel all that, its a good book no? *nervous laughter*
anyway, im glad i accidentally came across Alanna as i was googling (and tbh mad girl crushing) on Aya Cash, im glad i got it from my library only to buy it later to read it even later than that. i think this book came into my life at just the perfect moment; books will call you when they're ready to let you in. <3
timing is everything.
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"i dont think i talk too much. i just have a lot of information that needs to be disseminated to the public."
pub: 2022
pages: 570
read: feb 2-7, 2022
book:5 in 2022
SYNOPSIS
THOUGHTS
THOUGHTS
i loved this story if im honest. it hooked me. it got me to read when i wasnt really in a mood to read but so far (and i know its only february) this is the one book i feel like im going to fight in 2022.
WHY THE FUCK IS THIS BOOK ALMOST 600 PAGES AND STILL A FUCKING SERIES!
bro! what the fuck else you gotta say that wasnt said in 570 pages..... besides Lucian and Sloanes story?! 🙄 and uhm the brother (already forgot his name) Nick? lets call him Nick, he ends up with whats her face!? (im hella assuming here!) so im pretty sure that at least 2 more books follow and of course it has to do with them.
i know i shouldn't bitch because i have not been a fan of a single Jasmine book and all that i asked for was more depth and i finally got it here but daaaaaaamn! i gotta invest my life to at least 2 more 500+ page books!? 😫 whYyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! (im not. im not keeping up with any new releases from this series so i will only get to them if i come across them)
the author does note it........at the end of the book.
so there's that I guess 😒
but all whining over, I mean, yea? I liked it.
I'm not sure if this layout or style of story telling is normal for stories like this so maybe that was on me but yea the story was pretty cool.
I didn't mind reading it (that sounds so bad. gah!) im just not at all happy with the fact that i wasnt informed i was reading a series. i just checked on Goodreads and nothing. straight up, the story wasn't bad but my beef will always lie with the fact that this fucking book was 500+ and were still gunna get more and I know that sounds stupid bc shouldn't I be thankful? But it's who I am and I wanna post this and move on so let's just leave at that lmao.
SPOILERS
before we go further, Knox calls Naomi Daisy and so all over the place i call her daisy or daze and im too lazy to go back and change anything so heads up.
so the bad twin Tina just just fucks everything up.
she called Daisy to come save her and when she shows up (her name is Noami. because Noami backwards is I Moan and i remember distinctly thinking "lol of course that's her name") anyway, once Daisy (knox calls her that thru out the story bc when he met her she had her hair covered in daisies so im sticking to that)
FUCK
when Daisy shows up, Tina steals her car (& a shit load cash) and ends up leaving her kid (waylay) in Daisy's shitty motel room.
Tina has always been the fuck up so this is just her latest one except Daze had no idea she was even an aunt. So here comes Knox trying to kick Daze out thinking she's Tina but what do you know? The twin story is real.
So anyway he takes her back to the motel, that's where she finds out about her niece and knox ends up taking her back to where he lives and gives her and the niece, Waylay, a cabin to stay at. (he owns property where gma lives in the big ass house and he lives in one of the cabins. there was a third one just chillin' there)
Daze ran from her wedding bc the dude she was guna marry was abusive physically and mentally.
Knox had won the lotto and basically bought the town and fixed it up. The reason that knox and his brother don't get along is because growing up along with Lucian (a friend/basically third brother) they were all hell raisers as kids getting in trouble with cops so Knox tried buying his brother out with his lotto money so he wouldn't become a cop. and then got even more mad when his brother turned around and named the building after him lol.
tina was tryina break off with another bad dude who was trying to break off from his own father and show that he was his own crime man.
they had this usb that had all these cops information that they were going sell to the highest bidder or whatever.
Knox's brother was on the list and he was shot during a random stop but he wasnt killed. it wasnt until that trip to the hospital that they decided to try to mend things (the brothers. this is also where Daze and Knox have their first kiss)
anyway, tina comes back and tricks stupid ass naomi into getting into the car with her under the pretense that the bad dude had kidnapped Waylay and off they go.
they make it to the warehouse, Knox finally realizes that Daisy is missing, goes after her, Lucian finds her and they go and rescue her.
tina has a weird fucked up change of heart and tries to help by switching clothes with Daze but of course the dude catches on to them because of their boobs (-____________-)
anyway, they get rescued, it turns out that Waylay had the usb on her the entire time, she turns it in to the cop brother and he tells knox and lucian to leave it alone but way lets them know that there is another copy in the library (homie is a lil hacker.)
they get married and go on to have 2 kids.
and there is a lot that i left out but im over this shit.
kthxbye!
"you can either do the wrong thing and let a loss like that destroy you, or you can do the right thing and be properly grateful for all that came before the loss....."
pages: 356
heard: jan 28 to feb 2, 2022
(audio) book: 4 of 2022
THOUGHTS
this one felt oddly familiar.
this one felt oddly familiar.
this one felt like if Quinn himself was a reincarnation of Odd Thomas and instead of us getting the Odd we know and love, we get this version; one that hasn't fully developed his abilities yet, one that we get to see come to realization as to how horrible humanity can be but doesn't let it deter him because come on, its dean koontz! we always need a champ......it also reminds me a bit of Dune. (hbo! when are you bringing it back!???)
this one also felt like it was picked up by these foos in another universe right where the By The Light of the Moon crew left off; this new gang is continuing the journey. although.....
this one felt a little bit like the institute by stephen king. to tell you why would be to give you spoilers for both away and i dont wanna do that BUT i will say this, if you read the institute and thought that was too long, this might be a shorter alternative for you.
this is koontz doing what he does best and taking the "supernatural" and then fucking me up with it by adding a dash of human element to it.
like can a literal alien come abduct me? (i mean, idk, probably) but i guess what im trying to say doesnt even matter because i cant because its spoilery!
ahhhh!!!! (i guess what i was trying to say was that he has a way of writing about things that maaayyyy possibly happen but in a way that i feel like nah, it wont, but should it ever well, my mans warned me didn't he?)
overall, im glad i read this Dean Koontz release instead of sitting on it like i have with his other last 2 releases (along with the nameless season 2 release) 😅.
my regret now lies with the fact that i did not do spoilers right away when i started this post. now that im back finishing this up i cannot give you the best of spoilers. 😬
anywho, jump over for the little that i do have.
SPOILERS
uhm so quinn i guess is kinda like genetically made. along with homegirl he meets up with. they dont have real parents. the women that had them per se were basically drugged up and used against their will to carry these two and i guess many others. they are descendants of some other generation that i could not even begin to explain if i tried and uhm....in the end they meet up with someone else and they go on some sort of magnetic trip thing and they rescue humans and discover horrible truths of others and i think it ends with like well, this is life and we gotta choose to do better but man, i honestly cannot remember anything about this story.
uhm so quinn i guess is kinda like genetically made. along with homegirl he meets up with. they dont have real parents. the women that had them per se were basically drugged up and used against their will to carry these two and i guess many others. they are descendants of some other generation that i could not even begin to explain if i tried and uhm....in the end they meet up with someone else and they go on some sort of magnetic trip thing and they rescue humans and discover horrible truths of others and i think it ends with like well, this is life and we gotta choose to do better but man, i honestly cannot remember anything about this story.
sorry for the super bad job.
"storytellers are dangerous fools, and my eyes are wide open now."
pub: 2021
pages: 271
heard: january 25-27, 2022
(audio) book: 3 of 2021
THOUGHTS
I fucking loooooove book titles!!!!
I have no idea how many times I've learned the meaning behind the title of a story and yet my reaction to it is always the same: genius.
I wanted to read this book back in the days ever since I ran across it at Costco but i left it back then and i just now saw that it was available at my library as an audiobook so I dove in and let me tell you.
what.
the.
fuck?
are we supposed to hate this bitch? because I think we are and i think I do?
I can't really give you like one of the main reasons why because it is spoilery BUT I will say that I hate how she was written....but I think that was the point?
like she was ride or die for bad dick but let go of what was possibly the love of her life just like that!?
the kids! she only cared very rarely for them and even then it was only, well, once again.
ima be 100% honest and admit that I zoned in and out of this one so I probably missed key parts. but I think for the most part I kinda get it now that its all revealed?
MAYBE the author wrote her this way for us to feel that way - er at least me anyway. Idk.
I fucking hated her tbh. Granted we later on learn WHY but ugh. and if I stop to think about it then 🤯 because it just makes no sense to me. It's so hard to talk about because spoilers!!!!
I think my most fave part about this story is the clever use of the title.
meh. for only 271 pages, it felt like a lot of work for me. maybe if i had paid the proper attention.
maybe.
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Uhm to get to the gist of it, uhm she had mental issues? Idk tbh. She was mentally unstable? she was trying to frame her husband for cheating but it turns out she was the one living that wild life. idk this one was out there.
All along I thought she was Cinderella and then it turns out shes just a basic bitch going thru a divorce and her husband wants the kids.
As prince whatever the fuck, he was a cheating piece of shit. So im assuming she was painting her real life in a fairytale way (and when I word it like this, the story kind twists for me and I kinda dig it!)
but I could be 100% wrong because who knows wtf is going on. i dont think the husband was ever doing anything?
The witch was her therapist and the fairy godmother was her divorce lawyer? Or something like that?
And in the end no I don't think her husband was cheating on her? Bc I distinctly remember her telling the witch that in the end nothing happened she just thinks he never loved her to begin with.
and that's it.
Oh! And the fucking rats. 🙄
That whole business is annoying.
All of the replacing them and wtf not. But my favorite thing would be the way that one little bitch mouse put a curse on this Cinderella bitch that ended up backfiring on her whole entire mouse generation lol.
"forgiveness is the ultimate act of strength."
published: 2021
pages: 349
heard: january 18-25, 2022
(audio)book: 2 of 2022
THOUGHTS
i found out this book was coming out on accident. i went into the store intending to buy this book but walked out with another and then beat myself up when i didnt even end up given a shit about that one; i was beating myself up over missing this one. the audio came in from the library and a copy was available right away so i dove in and not even a whole chapter in i was once again regretting not buying a copy. i was so close to caving in but something told me to wait and i am so glad that i did because while it was nice to catch up with ST and the gang again (which i will be honest, did not really remember) it still wasnt easier for me since this isn't my kind of read and at the end of it all im kinda really glad now that i dont own this.
this is like walking dead for animals basically.
if its gory in ANY WAY, and it doesn't even have to be wildly gory, this is just gory enough, please get it away from me! and this book! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the description of humans was just ugh for me. i was so glad i was not eating at anytime during the listening of this story. even ST said he hoped we weren't eating! 😲 its just not my cup of tea.
other than that the story message overall was a good one. i could have just done without all the gory (to me) stuff. so honestly all in all, i could have done without this series. simply only because its not my type of trope/read. bahh! but there were a lot of things that i liked about this. i liked the way she humanized ST. and the way she made him care.
this one was good and im okay having come across it but I'm ready to let it go.
more like pointer spoilers after the jump because i dont even know.
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im back here after spoilers and i gotta say that while i did love lots of parts of this book im also kinda meh that it exists. i always felt like every issue was easily solved right away. i feel like for as much danger and as dangerous as this all was..... it wasnt? 😕
idk. im glad that its over, i would have been okay skipping this.
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