published: 2019
pages: 340
read: 5/5-9/2019 
book: 36 in 2019

In a haze of vape smoke on a rare windy night in L.A. in the fall of 2016, Chelsea Handler daydreams about what life will be like with a woman in the White House. And then Donald Trump happens. In a torpor of despair, she decides that she’s had enough of the privileged bubble she’s lived in—a bubble within a bubble—and that it’s time to make some changes, both in her personal life and in the world at large.

At home, she embarks on a year of self-sufficiency—learning how to work the remote, how to pick up dog shit, where to find the toaster. She meets her match in an earnest, brainy psychiatrist and enters into therapy, prepared to do the heavy lifting required to look within and make sense of a childhood marked by love and loss and to figure out why people are afraid of her. She becomes politically active—finding her voice as an advocate for change, having difficult conversations, and energizing her base. In the process, she develops a healthy fixation on Special Counsel Robert Mueller and, through unflinching self-reflection and psychological excavation, unearths some glittering truths that light up the road ahead. 

Thrillingly honest, insightful, and deeply, darkly funny, Chelsea Handler’s memoir keeps readers laughing, even as it inspires us to look within and ask ourselves what really matters in our own lives.

MY THOUGHTS
I'm hitting a slump where i don't really want to read let alone blog even though half of the following posts have already been typed up for foooorrreeeevvveeerrr. 
all i want to do is read harry potter but i keep checking out books at the library. 
AHHHHH!!!!

anyway, since there's really no spoilers here i guess ill make it quick. 

i LOVE Chelsea Handler!
she's by far the only celebrity i have fangirl'd over. (i got to meet her when i worked Khloe Kardashian's wedding.) 
i love all of her books!
i love her stories. 
i love her openness. 
i just love her. 

this was no different. if only, its maybe her best book yet. 
i love how open she is about everything here. 
its one thing to write books about haha stories to then write a book where she talks about how she discovers who she is meant to be / do. 

i love how open she is with everything and how she finally excepts therapy in to her life and how she realizes that her brothers' death and her father's handling of that shaped her into who she has / had been her whole life. 

i had a blast reading this while on vacation by the beach. so glad i waited to read this til then. 

if you come across it, i definitely recommend you read this. 
if anything, your vocabulary will grow exponentially. ....and maybe, you'll even learn a few things about yourself. 

thanks for reading! 
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published: 2018
pages: 485
heard / read: 4/30 to 5/3/2019 
book: 35 in 2019

Set in a dangerous near future world, The Book of M tells the captivating story of a group of ordinary people caught in an extraordinary catastrophe who risk everything to save the ones they love. It is a sweeping debut that illuminates the power that memories have not only on the heart, but on the world itself.

One afternoon at an outdoor market in India, a man’s shadow disappears—an occurrence science cannot explain. He is only the first. The phenomenon spreads like a plague, and while those afflicted gain a strange new power, it comes at a horrible price: the loss of all their memories.

Ory and his wife Max have escaped the Forgetting so far by hiding in an abandoned hotel deep in the woods. Their new life feels almost normal, until one day Max’s shadow disappears too.

Knowing that the more she forgets, the more dangerous she will become to Ory, Max runs away. But Ory refuses to give up the time they have left together. Desperate to find Max before her memory disappears completely, he follows her trail across a perilous, unrecognizable world, braving the threat of roaming bandits, the call to a new war being waged on the ruins of the capital, and the rise of a sinister cult that worships the shadowless.

As they journey, each searches for answers: for Ory, about love, about survival, about hope; and for Max, about a new force growing in the south that may hold the cure.

MY THOUGHTS
SHORT VERSION 
Ask and the universe delivers.
Finally!, a dystopian read that I did not hate.

LONG VERSION
as i have mentioned before, i get emails for eBooks on sale and this was one of them but i tend to avoid buying them now because i rarely use my e reader (not to say that there isn't a huge chunk to read on my nook and on the kindle app!), Its just that books are my priority right now because my library is hooking me up! but i saw this and it was the cover that caught my attention. (isn’t it always though?)

...then i read the synopsis and i was like crap! 😫...because you already know that station 11 wasn’t my favorite and neither were any of the dystopian stories that have come after it. but i was like screw it let me see if my library has it. 
and they did! 
both audio and physical so i got both.

and i'm glad i did because i really ended up liking this story. 


finally, a dystopian story that isn't so…, dreadful. That isn’t dragging and iduno…. boring. As far off as it is, it isn’t…nothing. at the end of it all, it has something to offer to me that none of the other have been able to do. 

i will admit that for most of the book, i was kind of lost because it’s kind of all over the place in regards to reality and fantasy but once i got the hang of it, i was okay with it.
what made this book for me was the end. 
it was so sad. 
to get so far, to be so close, so hopeful just for it to end the way it did for Ory. 
but that was the beauty in it. I don’t think I would have liked it as much as I did if it had all “worked out” in the end.

i loved Max's parts in the book. the way you got to see it evolving from her point of view even when she is slowly but surely losing her memories while Ory is seeing it all unravel and fall apart while moving forward on his end.
what a beauty that she has her memories in the recorder (although, wouldn't she eventually forget how to even use it?) to help her navigate what is to come in the upcoming years. and i find it so clever that the author was able to use the recorder for and against Max & Ory. i feel like that recorder played a huge part in all the decisions that were made by Max. and how Ory's fear played a huge part in the story as well. (I wont spoil it here)

this book involves weird magic bits, fear of the "end of the world", heartbreak, loss, discovery, courage, rage, love....just a bit of everything. and it all ties it up nicely, but i will admit that it is also a little out there. its all over the place but its done so good (IMHO) that I'm not questioning the validity of any part of this story no matter how far fetched it may seem just because its something I'm not used to reading. 

i ended up liking this book so much that i did end up buying it for my nook. this is a book that i will re-read sometime in the future and i just know that every time i do read it, it will teach me something new. i think i will always end up catching something that i previously missed. 

HERE is a review that i went off of when i first started this book. like always, i cheated and looked up spoilers and she was the only one that provided them. also, she goes a bit more into it than i do here and it looks like she's not a huge fan of the book, at least not as much as i am and i think its good to see two sides to this book.

overall, i'm glad i read this and i'm even more ecstatic that i found a dystopian novel that i ended up liking and not regretting like i have all others. 

as always, spoilers coming up!

thanks for reading! 
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EDIT: after writing out spoilers, I'm realizing that a) i either really didn't pay THAT MUCH attention or there really are a lot of things that were just left to your interpretation. either way, still really liked this book.