"no one hid meaningless things."

published: 2020
pages: 400
read: 11/11-22/2020 *what an amazing date sequence! 😍
book: 91 in 2020😵‍💫


THOUGHTS 
This was 🥴😳😖🥱
TOO MUCH SHIT.

I wrote out a smallish post back when I read this but never finished it so of course here we are.....and i deleted it because meh. I don't really remember much of this story other than the main spoiler which, that's a first. 😬

....but I looked back at my ig post and that basically still sums up how I feel about this story. 
I don't think I'll be rereading this ANY time soon but I think I'm holding onto it for a reason because I haven't yet been ready to give it away to a little free library....although that's kinda changing. 

anyway, see my ig post about this book here and jump over for super simple straight to the point spoilers cus that's all I members.





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so homegirl did kill her husband. and I'm 99.99% sure that it was his brother that saw her and was trying to catch her slippin BECAUSE APPARENTLY THE MEN IN THIS FAMILY FUCKING HUNT WOMEN FOR SPORT? 
something about dad used to fuck him up and mom never defended him or idk but they basically hunt women. father and both sons. something about a torture cabin. I think the brother was having inappropriate relations there. idk. Thats the whole twist. 

what I didn't really grasp because I was so fucking over this book by the time it was all revealed was if homegirl knew about homie and his past and how the men in his family tortured women. I think she knew?
Supposedly she didn't know about the brother when it came to cops & investigation but I think she knew about these motherfuckers all along and she was on some sort of mission to end him literally or something. Idk.

Idk. I could be 1000% wrong. 

Also, the annoying neighbor ends up being a homie in the end I think. 

Idk. All I know is they for sure had a cabin in the woods and they hunted women and ew. Okay Peter Swanson latest book vibes

 

"people who let themselves learn new things are the best kind of people." 

published: 2019
pages: 406
read/heard: 11/11-20/2020
book: 90 in 2020

High school senior Frank Li is a Limbo--his term for Korean-American kids who find themselves caught between their parents’ traditional expectations and their own Southern California upbringing. His parents have one rule when it comes to romance--“Date Korean”--which proves complicated when Frank falls for Brit Means, who is smart, beautiful--and white. Fellow Limbo Joy Song is in a similar predicament, and so they make a pact: they’ll pretend to date each other in order to gain their freedom. Frank thinks it’s the perfect plan, but in the end, Frank and Joy’s fake-dating maneuver leaves him wondering if he ever really understood love--or himself--at all. 
"dude, I'm so fucking goddamn sorry my grandma was such a dick to you just now. bitch can be such a bitch-ass, salty-ass bitch sometimes." 
THOUGHTS
im in between 2.5 and 3 stars; i liked it but maybe i would have been okay never having read it? 
im not sure. 
i dont even really feel that usual feeling where even if i wasnt a fan of a book 100, im still okay having read it. 
i dont know if i would have been okay never having read this....or if im like okay i read it. i dont know. 
does any of this make sense? 

if were going based off the synopsis, this story sucked. 
if we go based off what this story gave us, this story was good!

this does involve love and at the core of it, that is what the story is about but to mention only that in the synopsis is such a disservice to this book. 
yes he does fall in love with Brit and yes Joy does help him along with that relationship and vice versa and yes there is a "curve ball" but there is so. much. more! 
for example and without spoilers: his parents. and life! and his sister Hannah. and Q!

did i read this right? that there is going to be second book? 
a) why!!!!!!!!!? 
why the fuck cant a story just be a story and that's it! why is everything a fucking series? 
b) how? i dont really see how this would allow for book 2. i dont see why there would be a book 2; he's off to college. let the kid be. its ends just fine. 

what i didnt like about it: 
1. yes he falls in love with Brit. 
it was so out of the fucking blue though that i found it hard to believe. it just happens out of nowhere and like wtf? 

2. here was a chance to make a beautiful male friendship work so well (Frank & Q), and it was but i feel like there were points where frank could've definitely been a better friend. but i get it, its a thing. its a real thing and its also a trope in these kinds of stories. so this one is more so just a personal dislike for me. 

3. Q's ending. 
really? 
fucking really? 
i dont hate it at all, if anything more power to him and the story. but really? you mean to tell me that's who he was after? (im not sure how to properly word it here.) that's how it ends for my man!? 
tbh, i 1000000% believe Q deserves better. and if there was a book on just his story, i'd read the fuck out of it. 

what i liked!: 
1. all of the Korean in this book. 
look obvs, i dont know about Korean culture. so i liked that it was sprinkled throughout the book. 

2. the story if its read without ever having read the synopsis.
its a good story. its just the synopsis really sucks. 

if you read it, did you see the thing with Frank's ______ and the ______ happening before it even happened? 
i did. 
i don't know how i saw it but i saw it early on. and then i was mad when it did happen. 
i was mad before it happened because i thought to myself "what a cop out" but once i reached it, i found myself really liking and accepting that turn. 
(oooohhh and that whole thing with him & Joys dad!!!! yea, you might be rich but you're in debt. i might be poor but i have no debt and everything is mine and mine only! uuuugh! i loved the fuck out of that part!) 

hmm...there's a whole lot more that i think i could say but ill just leave it at this.
(today is 12/22/21. i wrote this back on 11/20/20. we all know i dont remember much by now)  

 IF YOU WANT TO READ THIS BOOK AND HAVE YET TO READ THE SYNOPSIS, DONT READ THAT AND JUST JUMP IN. 

k, im over this! thanks bye!
(sorry for any and all typo's. im being lazy as fuck and leaving it at that. 
xoxo! 

" even if actions speak louder than words, words fucking matter."

published: 2021
pages: 372
read: january 1-5, 2022
(e)book: 1 in 2022


THOUGHTS
if i wait to catch up (and as much as i want to!) it will never happen any time soon so welcome to 2022 reads along with the rest of 2020 & 2021 
*nervous laughter* 

i am still in a bit of a reading funk but when amazon kindle unlimited tells you "hey, here's two free months!" idk about you but i immediately sign up (and cancel right away) and hope for the best.
luckily i scored with this book. the cover in my opinion is, well it could be better but the story inside:  😀😂😍🥰🤩😥😫😤😭😩😭😢😍😍😍

LOVED MY FIRST BOOK OF 2022 and im sad that i do not have a physical copy because if i did it would be a total colored mess! and i am also sad that i no longer have this entire gang to catch up with anymore. 

ELI & WHITNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(i feel like RS Grey has done this name combo before?) anyway, these motherfucking 2!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍
i loved this story. 
i dont think that it was supposed to make me cry as much as it did but here we are. sunday morning my eyes hurt from all the crying when i woke up 😂

this reminded me of something RS Grey herself would have written if she had a little more oomph in her writing. part of this also reminded me of some of Julie Olivia's stories as well. overall it felt very familiar to me but more my style. 
all of the cussing! the whole family dynamic. the fact that it wasnt just Eli & Whitney that were going through shit. the fact that it was so funny to me and so idk personal in a way, i dont know but i loved everything about this book!
doesnt everyone toy with the idea of one day writing their own book?
if i knew how, this would have been it. 
everything about this book is me!, is for me! ahh! i just loved this book so much. 

i hope to reread this one soon.